Posts by The Doc 58

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EXJW Book Reading in Atlanta

by The Doc 58 in

i have a reading scheduled on may 15th in atlanta, ga. it is a new restaurant called the lamplighter cafe.

as an exjw, my book is about the experiences me and my friend faced gowing up in the religion and trying to be normal adults.

my book is called 'the colon chronicles'.

I am still slightly retarded from JW youth indoctrinationnnn, so I uck up on grammarrr and speeling. Forgive me if I am coming here for support, I didn't realize I would be critiqued with a fine toothed comb like I was in the JWS. I am coming here to get away from that and I have written a book and published it to be an inspiration to people that are scared. If negativity is what you are bringing through sacrastic and useless comments then don't respond to my posts, go celebrate Mikael Bakunin while singing song number 118 in your written review boxer shorts.

Thanks Valvetann, you are a nice person and I look forward to you reading my book.

Now's the time.

Benton

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EXJW Book Reading in Atlanta

by The Doc 58 in

i have a reading scheduled on may 15th in atlanta, ga. it is a new restaurant called the lamplighter cafe.

as an exjw, my book is about the experiences me and my friend faced gowing up in the religion and trying to be normal adults.

my book is called 'the colon chronicles'.

The Doc 58

Nice questions, I appreciate the feedback. Yes, I do not use the usual JW jargon i nsome cases in the book. There are two reasons for this.

1. When i started writing the book I was still a JW and married to a JW and I guess I was doing some sort of disguise so maybe I could still publish the book. Any exjw or jw can very easily see that what I am talking about is the jws.

2. Yes, I did want to make my book a little more univeral to all people that have face situations and circumstances where they don't belong or feel extremely uncomfortable with their surroundings.

I have a degree in literature. I was a public school teacher in english for seven years, so my book is not just a sensationalized version of life in the jws. It is a book with literary merit that deals with the subtle nuances of growing up and being a JW. My name is Benton Fazzolari and I grew up in Buffalo, N.Y. I attended the Lackawanna and Southside Congregations. I was a JW and so where all my friends. My family lives in Las Vegas. My father is an elder/pioneer, my brother elder.pioneer, my sister ex-bethelite/pioneer, my mother a pioneer, etc. So, I lived it and it hurts. As I mentioned I am in therapy and on meds. I have made a great recovery and written this book. I live in Los Angeles, but my wife is from Atlanta, so we visit back.

Velvetan, i am sending you your book tomorrow.

Please ask more questions. I am exorcisinf my soul and I KNOW that anybody that reads my book will understand.

And I encourage all of you to be yourself and don't disguise who you are by a username, etc. I am out and I know who I am, despite shunning, etc.

Thanks,

Benton

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EXJW Book Reading in Atlanta

by The Doc 58 in

i have a reading scheduled on may 15th in atlanta, ga. it is a new restaurant called the lamplighter cafe.

as an exjw, my book is about the experiences me and my friend faced gowing up in the religion and trying to be normal adults.

my book is called 'the colon chronicles'.

The Doc 58

I have a reading scheduled on May 15th in Atlanta, GA. It is a new restaurant called the Lamplighter Cafe. As an exjw, my book is about the experiences me and my friend faced gowing up in the religion and trying to be normal adults. My book is called 'The Colon Chronicles'. My avatar is the cover. For a description of the book you can go to the publishers website: www.junetwentyninthpublishing.com or go to here: http://www.amazon.com/Chronicles-Benton-Fazzolari-Watchtower-Jehovahs-Witness/dp/0615194370/ref=tag_stp_st_edpp_ttl

If you are interested in coming to the book reading, please let me know. I can give you directions and so forth. Again, it is in downtown Atlanta. Here is a link to the location: http://www.junetwentyninthpublishing.com/629promotionalevents.html

Also, here is an excerpt from my book. A large part of the content of my book is humor. Although living through the ordeal of surviving those truly uncomfortable social situations as a jw was painful. Humor can found during the reprogramming of the mind. Enjoy:

Here is an except which shows a JW character getting that visit of encouragement from the elders: Fisher's glowing explanation was interrupted by a knock on the door.Two Alfred Hitchcockesque silhouettes stood outside holding brief cases.Rich's eyes opened, he wiped drool off his mouth and felt frightened.His fear was confirmed when Fisher completely abandoned his treatise entitled, "Of Gravity Bong" and shouted to Rich, "Rich, Rich, it's a couple of old guys from your church."

"Ahhhhh.What do they look like?"

"They're both obese and bald.One has some severe razor burn and the other has a clip on tie.It looks like the slightly fatter guy hasn't shined his shoes in a decade."

"Shit."The unkempt shoes gave it away. Brother Michael Beagley was visiting with "encouragement" and at that moment it started to rain.

Fisher did what he knew would really perturb Rich.He let the obese churchmen inside.Immediately, Brother Beagely's large enflamed nostrils contracted with condescending energy.Then he glanced quickly to the other fat man, Brother Collar, and nodded with his dangling chin flapping one step behind.A whisper could be heard, "Smells like grass."

"Hi there Fisher, is Richard available?"

Fisher had a choice and of course chose the thing that would most upset Rich."Yes, I'll get him."He walked down the short hall, opened the bedroom door and stepped with one bare foot onto some tweezers covered in cat excrement.Fisher recognized it as Blinky's shit."Rich, your church elders are here to encourage you."Rich stumbled from the bed and walked to the living room.

"Hello, Brother Stadium," said Brother Beagley, "this is Brother Collar.Brother Collar, this is Brother Richard Stadium.We were in the neighborhood visiting Brother Chuck Knox, so we thought we'd stop by and talk for ten minutes.Can we have a seat?"

"Sure" said Rich.

"Brother Stadium, it seems like you've been toting the line lately with your conduct, association, and attitude in general.Do you realize that bad association spoils useful habits?In fact, let's look at that scripture, shall we?"

Rich walked into his bedroom, head down, and searched intensely for his bible.It was an early nineteen seventies green edition with his name etched in pseudo gold leaf on the bottom left hand corner.It was a gift from a Ugandan church member twenty-three years his elder and ten years earlier.They read the scripture together.Just behind the skin of his forehead his skull trembled insanely.He thought he could feel the fixed joint separating like the crusts of land under ocean waters.He could sense the tendons in his knees aging rapidly.

"It seems that you're missing several of our church meetings.I noticed that you've missed twenty three of the last thirty one meetings, most of which are on Thursday night, can you explain yourself?"

"I've been busy."

"Too busy for the lord."

"Well, I've been under stress from…"

"If you come to the meetings then that stress will disappear."

"But you don't understand, the church meetings give me stress."

"WHAT! That's crazy.The church is a place of refuge from this evil and corrupt world."

"My parents…"

"Listen, we could all blame our parents.My parents were Catholic, now what could be worse than that?"Brother Collar piped in, "Did your parents ever force you to speak in tongues?"

"No, but…"

"Your parents raised you the right way.Read this, it says, 'Do not forsake the gathering of yourselves for to incite to fine works.'Do you know what incite means?It means to sharpen.I sharpen you, you sharpen me."

As much as Rich wanted to rejoice in that reciprocal formula and as much as he admired the behemoth eloquence spraying from the church elder's mouth, he couldn't agree.His central nervous system wouldn't let him; neither would his colon.But he did comply.

"I will be at the next meeting."

"Well, that's just fine Brother Stadium."

Rich thought the visit was over and was about to thank the churchmen and walk them to their cars, much like the conclusion of an average nineteen fifties date, but it wasn't over.

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Who has lost faith?

by logic&reason in

i am curious about who (after leaving) went on to other religions vs. lost faith completely.

once i started questioning the wt society, i began to question everything.

as jw's we are taught from childhood up that other religions are false - so it seems easy, after elliminating the last one, to be rid of religion altogether.. .

The Doc 58

I have lost faith.

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Today I got diagnosed with PTSD... I thought only people that went to war

by cognac in

and things like that got ptsd... .

anyways, my husband and i talked and i said that i can't take the anxiety of going to the meetings anymore, so either i'm not going or i'm bringing and ipod or something... he's very supportive.

he felt bad about pushing me to do it.

The Doc 58

I have been diagnosed with PTSD as well. I recommend therapy and medication. They have both helped me. Also, I left all of the unhealthy relationships in my life, such as my parents, my exwife, and other jws. I know doing something like that takes a lot of time and planning, but you should start by establishing some non jw friends and possibly relatives. You'll need the support, but you also need to get healthy and leaving the jws is what will do it.

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The Watchtower Society Shows Their True Colors Again

by TooBad TooSad in

in the new may awake magazine there is an article "is philanthropy the answer?

i knew what the answer.

was going to be before i even read it.

The Doc 58

It's amazing how brainwashed jws are. Within five sentences of each other the society says we don't tithe or solitcit funds, but then they ask you to include them in your will. Why can't the jws see through this. It actually makes me really angry.

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JW spanking their kids

by asilentone in

what do you think about jw spanking their kids at the kingdom hall?

The Doc 58

Nice points WTWIZARD, I taught public school for seven years and any attempt at interesting or entertaining learning was stiffled by administration. The last school I taught at was all about submission to authority, nothing else. Imagine making twelve year old kids walk in lines and remain absolutely silent for seven hours, including lunch. I addressed these issues with the head principal and she did nothing, so one day I just walked out.

As far as spanking at the hall, I had a few of those myself. In fact it is sometimes a topic for discussion with my therapist.

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anyone else feel inadequate

by 46&2 in

over the past 10 years ive tried coming back to the truth only to find myself back in the world doing silly things again and again.

i am onnce again determined to come back to the truth but feel that i am beyond redemption.

i feel ashamed going to talk to the elders cause they have dealt with me on two other occasions once being disfellowshipped 10 years ago and reproved two years ago.

The Doc 58

Welcome:

I agree with hope4others. The great majority of the people that post on this website do not favor the jehovahs witness organization. As a suggestion, ask yourself if what you have done to "sin" are really sins or just the jehovahs witness guilt trip indoctrination.

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Went to the Memorial Last Night

by B_Deserter in

the hall i went to had some guy from bethel who literally sounded like a 12-year-old giving the talk.

all i could think about was v's video about the memorial and how it's nothing but an infomercial for jehovah's witnesses.

i realized why the memorial is "so important" to jehovah's witnesses: it's their biggest recruiting day of the year!

The Doc 58

Good point about the memorial being an infomercial. Just a load of total bull shit. I am so happy that I didn't attend. I remember that about three years ago I went with my parents in Vegas and they had it at some community college aud. Anyway, I bought and read the book by Kafka 'the metamorphisis' and my father accidently dropped the bread on the floor when he passed it to me. I don't think either one of us cared. He is still and elder, but I know he thinks the thing is nothing but bull shit, but i am sure he wont admit it.

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How Did Your JW Wife or Husband Leave You?

by new boy in

inspiried by other post and threads....and the love to type.. after going from being a self rightious pioneer and bethelite, to someone who had major doubts.my years drifted by me.

i had been a watchtower slave for over 50 years.

one day at a time, i sold my soul.

The Doc 58

It is worth it to get out. My experience is similar except I am the one that left the JWs and the wife. But it is worth it. I couldn't live the lie anymore and when your entire social structure is attached to the group like my ex wife's was, I knew I had to leave. It does take a lot of "balls" and causes great emotional stress, but to anyone that is hanging in their life as a JW, my advice is to leave as quickly as possible and you'll see that the benefits outweigh the consequences greatly, especially as time goes on.